Well, my whole life is changing now. Maybe it's a good thing. I'm moving apartments, switching jobs at work, and trying not to date. I think the apartment thing is my biggest issue right now. We moved all of our stuff this past Sunday. It was an all day endevour. Started at nine, finsished at 6. I don't really like the idea of me moving. I mean, who wants to move into someone elses apartment, with someone elses rules, with someone elses stuff. NOT ME. But I'm doing it anyway. It would be one thing if I had new roommates moving into my apratment, then it's kinda like they are moving in on my terms. Don't get me wrong, this girl seems nice, but I've already been living here for 3 years. I'm settled. But meanwhile, I'm sleeping on my blow-up matress til thursday. Not fun at all.
At work, i'm kinda moving from a high school posititon to an elementary position. But when i say kinda, i mean kinda. I'm still doing all of my work for the high school, just at the elementary school location. Plus all of the elementary school stuff that will now come with the job. It should be interesting. Now when the tears come it will be because of a boo boo, not because some girl stole my students boyfriend.
On the dating end, my friend wanted me to go out with this broolyn guy. I told her, if she could give me one reason that I should go out with him besides that both of us are single, that I would go out with him. She told me that I sounded like I was burnt out and should take a break. I don't think she had a reason. But she did tell me something interesting. She is married now. but she said she looked at dating as contacts. You never knew if a person is right for you, but one thing is for sure, he probably has friends and who knows if one of his friends could be the one for me? Well, I've been out with my share of guys. Not one of them has told me they have friends, and def. not one has told me that they have a friend for me. But, I guess you never know. I see dating as dating. if it works, great. If it doesn't, I don't expect anything to come out of it. I don't know how the rest of the world looks at it, but maybe i'm looking at it with my eyes wide shut.

Remember when I said....

Remember when I said that I wasn't going to date nerds anymore. Well, you must have thought I was being a little unrealistic. Now, I've decided I'm not dating anymore. I'm totaly being serious. I refuse to date. I went out on the worst date in history last Sunday. This was the last straw. I don't think I can handle anything worse. And that is how my dates have been going, from bad to worse. Let me tell you the horrible story. I was due to meet him at six at the restaurant. As i was turning the corner to the restaurant, I new I was getting near it cause I saw what seemed to be a pandhandler in front walking in cirlces. I thought the place was supposed to be a little classier, but I figured we are in NY, anything happens. Well, as I walked closer, the guy I thought was a pandhanler yelled out my name. I think I almost fainted. I didn't know what to do. The pandhandler was my date, ok he wasn't actually asking for money, but he looked like he should be. He was wearing bright blue shoes that looked like he had just taken them out of the trash. His pants were so gross, they had holes all over them, and one side was longer than the other. His supposidly pink shirt was so gross that it was really brown from not being washed in months there were staind all over it. it was also buttoned wrong, so I could see his yellow undershirt. Plus the smell was so nausiating that I could smell him 5 feet away. the worst part of it all was he had blood dripping down from his ear. It was mainly dried blood, so who knows how long it was there for. I couldn't beleive it. I didn't know what to do. When he opened the door, I couldn't even hear him talking on the top of his lungs like he did the whole date. I was in complete shock. When we walked in I think the waiters and manager saw the look on my face and felt compassion towards me. I think they were also in shock. They sat us down and never really left my table. I guess they could see the look in my eyes asking for help. They even brought me free appitzers cause they felt so bad. The whole date went with him saying things like, "On our next date we should go to a museum. "Oh, I could take you out to a baseball game, won't that be fun," or "I think our relationship is going well, I would like to take it a step forward." Things like that. I kept saying to him, cause I didn't want to make him mad, "I'm really old fashioned, I like to go through a shadchan." "I'm sorry, I think you need to slow down, I take things slow."
I was shaking by the end of the date. I hadn't eatten anything cause I was so nausious. An hour later, when he walked me to the train I was so relieved but I couldnt get on the train yet, I had to go sit in the park to settle down. It was horrible. Never in my life have I ever been so scared. That is why i am not dating anymore, cause I can't handle a date worse than that.

What's up with that?

Have you ever sat in the airport longer than you should have? Well, I'm doing that right now. Between all that has been happening with the airlines, and the weather in nyc, I'm stuck here. I've already been here for 4 hours and will, at the least, be here for another 2. Thank goodness the internet is working or else I would be so bored.

Well, I just wanted to update everyone on Stalker 2. he's still stalking me. We talked this past monday for the second time ever. He kept telling me how he thinks this relationship is really working. How we get along really well. Fine. That's one thing. Then we set up a date for when I get back. For my own interests, I repeatedly told him that I would be unable to talk to him during the week, so he should call me on FRIDAY and we will reconfirm and set a time and all of that. I must have told him at least 4 times, with stressing the Friday part. Ok, well, I have to give him one thing, he didn't call me on Tuesday. But, he called me Wednesday and also today. The thing is, he doesn't call just once, he calls multiple times. he also leaves a message everytime. "Just wanted to say hi" "How's the weather over there" "Looking forward to the date." i'm sorry, it's just a little ubsurd. Now when my phone rings I dread to look at it and see that it's him. I don't know what to do. My heart is raceing with frustration. I don't want to go out on this date.

With that said, wish me luck.